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The prince said - (after lashing out at me because I responded to his text message "Want to come over and cuddle?" with"I can't" - seems that wasn't the answer he wanted. And so we broke up - I broke up with him because he was being a first class spoiled brat jerk. This is how he tried to get me back:
I believe in the same ways! So why do think we are at odds with each other ?
And I wrote: Because you want what you want when you want it. Because you don't seem to allow things to develop. Because you lash out when things don't seem to go your way. Yesterday wasn't the first time either that I got an e-mail in my inbox that just had me shaking my head, wondering if it was really ME you were talking to.
My motives are all good. For you to lash out at me that way hurts me a great deal and makes me wonder about what I am saying or "putting out there".
I just don't seem to have the time to devote to a relationship with you. I have other things that demand my attention as well. If my texting you, "I can't" when I am in the middle of getting my car fixed (so you don't think I am just ignoring you) isn't an answer you liked getting, well I'm sorry. And, remember - I have a phone without a QWERTY keyboard, so it isn't as easy as it is for you to text back and forth.
I'm in no way making excuses for myself. That is something you should have thought of, giving me the benefit of the doubt, not taking the position as you did that I was being malicious in any way, shape or form.
Maybe other women have been that way in your life, that isn't me. If I were you, I would have looked at that text, said "gee she must be busy, I'll talk to her later" and smiled, happy to have met someone who shares my ideals. But no, you took a different tack, one sure to make me defensive and hurt. Uh uh - I'm not doing that. I've been hurt enough in my life to know I'm not going there - and surely not with you.
Today he IMed me, "Miss me yet?"
I didn't respond.

Torn........

So here I am in the beginning of 2008 with two guys who don't know about each other - one is a prince (not an actual prince, but still - pretty close) and we haven't slept together - yet. He is a lot of what I think I might be looking for - fun, generous, cute, and silly. Yet he's also very responsible too. The OTHER guy is great in bed - the best ever - and that is saying a lot as I can't count how many guys I've slept with since I was 15.....but I digress. He's pretty cool - actually he's NOT cool at all. He listens to music my dad would have liked and doesn't own a computer - doesn't even have a cell phone!! I've been in this situation before....but it was always uncomfortable (for me) and it never lasted long. I had to make a choice either way. So....do I take a chance with the prince....? Or stay with the status quo (and great mind-blowing sex)?

What to do, what to do.....

I won't let myself be complacent about my house or my weight, so I've joined both Flylady (www.flylady.net) and Curves.
Flylady helps a bit - if I would just be able to do 15 mintues of SOMETHING everyday.
Curves would help if I could get there the 3 times a week they recommend.

Doing, doing, doing....

I can't get my life in order - no matter how hard I seem to try. My house is a mess. Well, the living room, anyway. And the dining room. I'm 20 lbs overweight. I've got three jobs - not including the one as a mom to my 11 year old daughter. Did I mention I'm doing all of this on my own? Yup, I'm a single mom.
But I'm gonna get to a place I'm happy with.